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Saturday, February 24th, 2007
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| Time: | 4:02 pm. |
| Mood: |  stressed. |
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Stressed... lots of homeworks. not that I can't finish it nor they are difficult.
but that means I can't play games as much as I want. :(
There are so many other things I wanna do, like doing some work out, learn something new, write a program to automatically make a timetable out of selected courses, but I just can't stop the gaming.
Somebody stop me.
And then I got a letter from NYS tuition grant saying that I'm not eligible for $2500 grant because I have not been living in NYS for 1 year. but wtf, my financial aid counselor told me that I'm a dependent student and since my mom's been here for a year, I will be considered as NYS resident. O.o I guess I gotta talk to him again and find out what I should do.
I'm gonna go over to friendster blog.
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(drop your nukes)
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This is gonna be interesting. the last post was 2 years ago when I got a girl friend. and then couples of days ago , I broke up with her. It is not that we wanted to but, I moved to NYC last May and we both had been trying to cope with this long distant relationship. And finally, we decided not to waste each other's time since there isn't really any future for us. She's got someone chasing her and she'll probably be happier with him. As for me, no money, no girl. HAHA. Well instead of being s.a.d (single, available and depressed), I shell try to enjoy the life here. But damn, I'm having cultural complexity issue here.
I can't really fit in with people here. I don't know about cars nor I can drive.
Someone: "Man, my friend got a Mustang and messed around his ****, removed the **** and ****. He replaced original **** with a modified **** And now he got the 400bhp engine!"
Me: O.O *nods* *nods* *nods*
I don't work out nor watch football.
Someone: "**** owned **** yesterday, man. I can't believe **** did a ** yard dash, passing ***** and **** and scored a touch down!"
Me: O.O *nods* *nods* *nods*
I don't smoke. I don't drink alcohol nor beer. I don't sex around either, not that I don't want it but, just , I don't know. -.-
On one hand, I want to be who I am, doing what I like. On the other hand, I really gotta fit into the society here. But I'm trying... I think.
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(drop your nukes)
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Saturday, February 12th, 2005
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| Time: | 10:22 pm. |
| Mood: |  loved. |
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I got a girlfriend,
yeah,
she is nice
she really cares about me,
beyond i could ever hoped for
i really like her, and she likes me too
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(3 fallouts | drop your nukes)
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Sunday, August 22nd, 2004
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Tuesday, August 10th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:42 pm. |
| Mood: |  crushed. |
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today i had 1st session of akido training
got alot of cute gals in akido club
dunno how long they will last
but i fall down and sprain my ankle while i was looking the other side and
walking towards the sports hall for the akido training
1st day, already screwed up, and it is before the training -.-!
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(2 fallouts | drop your nukes)
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Thursday, August 5th, 2004
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| Time: | 10:58 pm. |
| Mood: |  pissed off. |
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school started since last week monday,
ntu is fun
didn't know ntu got alot of chiobus
but then, in comp eng, it is like, 1 gal to 8 guys, O.o
and most are not that pretty
saw a group of year1 gals from business few days ago
they are atleast 3.5-4/5
and this is just 1 group
considering the whole of business, there would be like hundreds of their kind
:(
i wish i could mix CE and business a little
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(1 fallout | drop your nukes)
| Time: | 11:17 pm. |
| Mood: | pissed off. |
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WHY!!! WHY MUST I BE THE ONE TO DO
they don't even wash their own plates!
they don't even hang their own underwear after washingmaching washed them!
i have to iron her clothes
prepare dinner
wash EACH AND EVERY FUCKING PLATES
clean the flat
vaccum, mop
i'm virtually doing every house works
geez, i wonder how has they been living before my "holiday"
if my grandma is here and my sis still living,
right now, i'll just like a house maid, doing these stupid stuffs 24/7
and i don't even fucking get paid for all this
and i only requested to LET ME STAY in a hostel for a year, just to get experience
she said "I'm selfish, doesn't understand what she's been going through in her work,
only know what i want to do, I'm useless, piece of trash, someone whom she cannot depend on"
and no, from the begining, I don't plan to ask for money to stay in hostel, i'll get enough money,
through working and loans
and she still said I am wasting money
plus, she said I will leave her soon cos I am probably thinking of getting married once graudated
and start own family
what the hell?
i'm not even thinking of getting married
if that is what she is expecting of me, FINE
i'll just leave and live alone
away from her, so that she can't call me up at mid night to wash the dinner plates for her
but i must die die go to hostel for atleast a year
away from these stupid, waste of time and effort, works
am i selfish?
yeah, probably
but these house chores are ranked 1st in "Most Hated Jobs" for me
i won't do that job, even if someone pays me 2k per month for it
right now, the main reason i want to get away from home is not her scoldings anymore
she doesn't have the time anyway
now is the househole chores, which has no progress in doing it,
which won't give me any fucking experience for my studies or my future work
it is a plain wasting of time
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(3 fallouts | drop your nukes)
| Time: | 2:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  satisfied. |
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I KNOW HOW TO COOK!!!
I KNOW HOW TO COOK!!!
I KNOW HOW TO COOK!!!
I KNOW HOW TO COOK!!!
1ST TIME IN MY LIFE I MANAGED TO FRY EGG SUCCESSFULLY
taste not bad too
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(9 fallouts | drop your nukes)
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I am DYING HERE!!
this new course is teaching like
Teacher "Students, what is this thing that u see when u turn on ur computer"
Students "It is called desktop teacher"
Teacher "And what is this "bar" at the bottom of the screen called"
Students "It is called taskbar, mdm"
dotz...
i'm not giving up, i must learn something new!
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(1 fallout | drop your nukes)
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Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
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Saturday, March 20th, 2004
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| Time: | 11:00 pm. |
| Mood: | bitchy. |
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Session Start: Sat Mar 20 22:45:39 2004
Session Ident: gentsyguy
[Saturday|22:45:41] [ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<cute^18>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Session Start: Sat Mar 20 22:45:39 2004
Session Ident: gentsyguy
[Saturday|22:45:41] <cute^18> hi
[Saturday|22:45:51] <gentsyguy> hi
[Saturday|22:45:53] <gentsyguy> asl?
[Saturday|22:46:26] <cute^18> gimme a sec
[Saturday|22:47:53] <cute^18> 18, studying in JC
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[Saturday|22:47:59] gentsyguy is abc@ppp103.dyn86.pacific.net.sg * xxsss
[Saturday|22:47:59] gentsyguy on +#Pubs #rp #1985 #singnet_yoursay #singapore #teens
[Saturday|22:47:59] gentsyguy using pacific2.sg.galaxynet.org [203.120.90.62] [203.120.90.62] The Pacific Intern
[Saturday|22:47:59] gentsyguy End of /WHOIS list.
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[Saturday|22:48:21] <gentsyguy> ok
[Saturday|22:48:23] <cute^18> <gentsyguy> hihi any gals looking for pt time? 200/hr. plsg msg me now. gtg. thanks.. << really serious?
[Saturday|22:48:28] <gentsyguy> yes
[Saturday|22:48:34] <gentsyguy> spend 30 mins wif me only
[Saturday|22:48:36] <gentsyguy> get 200
[Saturday|22:48:48] <cute^18> ok, doing what kinda stuffs
[Saturday|22:49:04] <gentsyguy> go hotel...
[Saturday|22:49:05] <gentsyguy> safe
[Saturday|22:49:09] <gentsyguy> caring n gentle
[Saturday|22:49:14] <gentsyguy> like bf gf
[Saturday|22:49:20] <cute^18> i'm abit shy
[Saturday|22:49:27] <cute^18> and also, not really experienced
[Saturday|22:49:33] <gentsyguy> its ok
[Saturday|22:49:36] <gentsyguy> ru pretty?
[Saturday|22:49:38] <gentsyguy> ht/wt?
[Saturday|22:49:39] <gentsyguy> got pic?
[Saturday|22:49:41] <gentsyguy> webcam?
[Saturday|22:49:54] <cute^18> about 170cm
[Saturday|22:49:55] <cute^18> 40kg
[Saturday|22:50:09] <gentsyguy> ok
[Saturday|22:50:13] <gentsyguy> chinese?
[Saturday|22:50:15] <cute^18> i dun really call myself pretty
[Saturday|22:50:18] <cute^18> yeap
[Saturday|22:50:18] <gentsyguy> do this b4?
[Saturday|22:50:46] <cute^18> yeah, once
[Saturday|22:50:49] <cute^18> wif a bf
[Saturday|22:50:54] <gentsyguy> ok
[Saturday|22:50:54] <cute^18> but i broke up wif him liao
[Saturday|22:51:00] <gentsyguy> wif irc guys?
[Saturday|22:51:12] <cute^18> this is 1st time, cos i really desparate for cash
[Saturday|22:51:21] <gentsyguy> why ?
[Saturday|22:51:23] <gentsyguy> need for wat?
[Saturday|22:51:48] <cute^18> i need pay hp bills, and my dad just got retrenched
[Saturday|22:51:54] [oferac12 FINGER reply]: oferac12 (chane@me.com) Idle 1 seconds
[Saturday|22:51:54] <gentsyguy> oic
[Saturday|22:51:56] <gentsyguy> okies
[Saturday|22:52:01] <gentsyguy> what is yr name/hp?
[Saturday|22:52:02] <cute^18> and can u gime ur pic please?
[Saturday|22:52:04] <gentsyguy> when u free?
[Saturday|22:52:08] <gentsyguy> avg looks
[Saturday|22:52:13] <gentsyguy> 165 55
[Saturday|22:52:15] <gentsyguy> no pic sorrie
[Saturday|22:52:30] <cute^18> how old are u?
[Saturday|22:52:41] <gentsyguy> 20++ m chi sg
[Saturday|22:52:48] <gentsyguy> what is yr name/hp?
[Saturday|22:52:51] <gentsyguy> pls
[Saturday|22:52:53] <gentsyguy> if u serious
[Saturday|22:52:56] <gentsyguy> up to u
[Saturday|22:53:57] <cute^18> u got hp? i need to decide it seriously, cos it is no more a child'splay
[Saturday|22:54:00] <cute^18> will u be online later?
[Saturday|22:54:06] <gentsyguy> no
[Saturday|22:54:10] <gentsyguy> logging off
[Saturday|22:54:13] <gentsyguy> i call u now
[Saturday|22:54:18] <gentsyguy> u can still decide
[Saturday|22:54:22] <gentsyguy> free on monday?
[Saturday|22:54:55] <gentsyguy> its quite safe
[Saturday|22:55:03] <gentsyguy> use protection all the way
[Saturday|22:55:05] <gentsyguy> dun worry
[Saturday|22:55:18] <cute^18> hey, sorry, i'm a guy, just playing wif perverts, enjoy hunting
Session Close: Sat Mar 20 22:55:45 2004
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(2 fallouts | drop your nukes)
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Saturday, February 21st, 2004
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| Time: | 10:49 pm. |
| Mood: |  accomplished. |
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i'm gonna play a little game by myself.
lets see if I can become "Mr Perfect".
lol
it is too boring doing nothing and slacking
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(drop your nukes)
| Time: | 10:49 pm. |
| Mood: | sad. |
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she would scold me 10000 times, and say like i'm nothing but just a useless piece of shit, good for nothing stupid idiot, then to praise me once
i'm not blaming her, but sometimes i really don't feel like living with her and wanna run away.
cos she raised me, she brought me up, supported me out of all her difficulties
as i'm typing this, she scolded me again,
all the words in dictionary, i hate "STUPID" most.
and she only uses that
fine, i'll do my best to survive on my own
without even a single cent of her money
i'll pay her back every cent that took to raise me, every cent that i owe her, whether she wants it or not, i'll return.
i don't know how to pay back the emotions, and love or whatever thing you call it, but i'll think of something
if she is so disappointed in me, atleast, please don't say it all out.
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(2 fallouts | drop your nukes)
| Time: | 10:49 pm. |
| Mood: |  moody. |
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ok, not so bad, just got back results
i was hoping to get AAAB C6 and a merit for S
lol.
too bad AAAC C6 and UNGRADED
and the C is my FM which will be considered as AO'lvl so, not so bad
lol
no regret,
i was having too much fun without mugging for A'lvl
playing too many games
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(drop your nukes)
| Time: | 10:49 pm. |
| Mood: | moody. |
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Why does she always blame for any single little thing and say i'm useless trash.
other type of scolding does nothing to me, and nothing hurts me more than "Useless Trash".
hope she doesn't go beyond my limits.
when i get pissed, things will get to extreme
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(2 fallouts | drop your nukes)
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Saturday, February 14th, 2004
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Today is v-day, and I stayed at home whole day and rot
hopefully next year will be something different
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(drop your nukes)
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Wednesday, January 21st, 2004
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omg
my mom is tell me wat ingredients to put, how to fry and all those
i can forsee that i'll have to cook in the near future
HELP!!!
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(drop your nukes)
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Tuesday, January 6th, 2004
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Sunday, January 4th, 2004
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got one gal says she admire me
but, seriously
she is the study study type, ultra hardworking
and me?
just right opposite
computer nerd,
never study
can't think of any quality that she can admire in me
=/
weird
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(drop your nukes)
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Thursday, January 1st, 2004
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